"The only humility that is really ours is not that which we try to show before God in prayer, but that which we carry with us, and carry out, in our ordinary conduct. The insignificances of daily life are the importances and the tests of eternity because they prove what spirit really possesses us. It is in our most unguarded moments that we really show and see what we are. To know the humble man, to know how the humble man behaves, you must follow him in the common course of daily life." Humility by Andrew Murray
If I could go back and change one thing when I was a mother of young children and pre-teens, it would be to diligently pursue humility in the "unguarded moments" of my daily life. Pride so often kept me from the help that I desperately needed. The Lord regularly allowed my children to confront my idols of comfort and ease. Rather than respond to these interruptions with humility and repentance, I was too often harsh and irritable.
This became a habitual routine -- one that for years I was embarrassed for anyone to know about. I was being resisted by God because I was too proud to let others know the real me. As the Lord has allowed me to grow in this area, one of the greatest benefits of humility I'm experiencing is the ability to laugh at myself, and to include others in on the humor. I can remember years where I took myself far too seriously, especially when things weren't going my way. Laughter is a wonderful deterent to pride.
I have learned that God gives more grace when I am willing to embrace the trials and struggles of parenthood and trust Him for the outcome. It is true that every test I face matters for eternity, and I want to pass this test - not so that I'll look good to others, but that God might be glorified in my life as a wife and mother (and soon-to-be grandmother!!!).
Posted by Debi