Well, for those of you that haven't heard, we are expecting a new baby! We have been "trying" for a while and the Lord has blessed us with a new little life! We are SO excited!
Along with my excitement, I have found a bit of worry in the back of my mind. You see, two years ago I was pregnant and then, had a miscarriage at 10 1/2 weeks. It was challenging to walk through, but at the same time, it was amazing to "feel" God's presence leading me through the time. His Hand was evident everywhere I turned. But it was still a sad time.
The unusual thing about my current pregnancy is that I have the exact due date as last time around - April 10. Isn't that hard to believe? Anyway, everything seems very familiar - and now I find my mind asking the question - "Will it end the same way?"
I have been convicted of putting my faith in circumstances and not in the Lord. And even though those questions aren't all consuming, they are still there and, in the beginning, was robbing my joy a bit. A very wise friend (thank you, Elyse!) encouraged and challenged me to not give in to the worry but to be excited! And I realized that she was so right! I don't need to assume I know God's plan in all of this! Through confession of sin and preaching the truth to myself, He is helping me trust HIM day by day!
Another way the Lord has helped me is through the means of an ultrasound! I was able to see my baby for the first time! Plus, I got to see and hear the baby's heartbeat! What joy and excitement that brought to my heart! The Lord was kind to give me this opportunity!
I know that the journey is far from over and there will continue to be opportunities to worry and be anxious, but my prayer is that the Lord will help me trust HIM in those times. He has never failed me - and He won't start now!
Posted by Stephanie
